THE RETURN OF LIGHT - Chap 4
Revelations from The Creator God Horus
Elora Gabriel and Karen Kirschbaum
The Eye of Horus
The Complete Text and Updates
First Published 2005 by Green Willow Publications of Candler, NC 28715, USA
Chapter FOUR: THE ROLE OF PRIME CREATOR
This section mentions two very important components of the restoration of Creation: the Omniversal Energy and the Light Warriors. Details are included in later chapters; please consult the Glossary for short definitions.
Part 1: The Loss of Faith in the Creator
Elora: Heru, our topic for today is not a pleasant one. After the channeling we did a few days ago, as I was mulling it over, my emotions began to boil. First I felt intense grief as I considered all the suffering that has occurred due to the invasion of darkness, particularly because it was useless and purposeless, not part of some greater plan. Then, deep anger and rage at the Creator came up, underlain by a profound sense of betrayal and abandonment. I'm sure these feelings have an irrational component. Nevertheless I'm going to share the track of my emotions with you, because I'm convinced that almost all Humans on Earth and in all of the Fallen Universes have similar emotions, consciously or not.
Heru: They do.
Elora: First of all, the amount of time that we're dealing with here is staggering. You said that the original invasion happened about 1.3 billion years ago, and that our Universe was invaded about 900 million years ago.
Heru: That is correct.
Elora: Then I started thinking about the number of universes that must have fallen. If the universes number in the tens of thousands, let's say just for example that there are 40,000 of them. If six percent are fallen or embattled, as you have said, then we have 2400 Dark Universes! And I feel that a billion years and 2400 Dark Universes is just way, way too much, and way, way, way too long.
Heru: I agree.
Elora: This is not like a spider bite on a person's arm. It's like losing a whole hand to infection and death. In fact, it feels almost to me as if this Creation is like a beautiful woman who has been raped. Maybe the rape only took place in her vagina, in six percent of her body, but it affects the whole, and it's not a small thing.
Heru: That is a good analogy.
Elora: When I began to think of the amount of suffering and devastation that has occurred because darkness was allowed to spread, and wasn't dealt with for such an incredibly long time, a tremendous feeling welled up in me that said, "Regret isn't enough." For those on the highest level to say they're sorry they didn't act sooner is just not enough to balance the weight of the countless numbers of Beings who went through not just many lifetimes of suffering, but millions of such lifetimes. It's also not enough for those Beings who have actually been destroyed, who have ceased to exist. For them, the rescue has come too late. They are gone forever.
Heru: That is true.
Elora: I feel that hardwired into all life in this universe is the belief that Creator is loving, Creator is just, Creator is merciful. But in fact, those Beings in the Fallen Universes found that when darkness invaded, God did not act. God did not protect the innocent. God did not stop the rape, the devastation, of worlds and galaxies and universes. Like a husband who is cowardly or paralyzed, God stood by and allowed His Creation to be raped, stood by and watched and did nothing, when we were fighting not only for our own existence but sacrificing ourselves to help the whole. God is finally acting and we are all grateful, but it feels like too little, too late. Yes, we need help, but we needed it about a billion years ago!
Heru: Yes.
Elora: At this point Heru, I feel a need to ask: Do you trust God, the Prime Creator?
Heru: I trust the intentions. I do not always feel that the Prime Creator can totally reach into the Creation and effect the change that is needed. Just as I recently tried to manifest in your third dimensional world and was unable to, Prime Creator has attempted to deal with this but has been, up until now, unable to deal with it. [Elora: But you do absolutely and totally trust the intentions of Creator?) Yes.
Elora: I realized that there's a large part of me that no longer has that trust. I feel like a child in a household where an invader broke in and raped, tortured, and killed the children, while the parents stayed on the top floor of the house and didn't do anything. How could I ever trust my parents again?
Then a feeling came that is perhaps even worse than the anger. And that is the sense of being betrayed and abandoned by God. I know that I was part of the group of Light Workers which were sent here 500 million years ago to help the Fallen Universes. To use yet another analogy, I feel like a member of a special task force that is sent by my government to a dark and dangerous place. We are sent by our Country, and we are sent with the mandate and the promise, "Establish a base - reinforcements will follow, very soon." Heru, am I wrong? I feel in my bones that this was said to those of us who volunteered to work in the Dark Universes.
Heru: It was, and the help was not able to come through.
Elora: So we went out. We suffered, we died, we have been ringed about with enemies all around. But no help arrived. We sent telegrams, we sent messages, we cried out for help. But no help came. Not until now. But by now, as a force we are in rags and tatters and a lot of us didn't even make it to this point.
Heru: This is true.
Elora: The sense of abandonment that I feel around this is so profound that it feels as if every cell in my body could weep for a thousand years.
In any case , to conclude this tirade of emotion, I return to the metaphor of the woman who gets raped. The Husband finally acts, the perpetrator is carried off to jail, and the woman is healed of her physical wounds. But what about her emotional scars? She still carries, imbedded in her soul substance, not one trauma but two. First, the trauma of the rape, and secondly, the trauma of the fact that her Husband allowed it to happen, for a long stretch of time that, for her, was an eternity of horror.
Heru: Yes.
Elora: So now the Creator is finally acting to expel the dark invaders. This is a time of great joy. But, as we who have suffered the effects of this event begin to raise our heads and to see the Light again, mixed with our gratitude are the painful emotions that I've just described. So I feel that the healing which will take place must also occur within the family of this Creation itself, between Creator and creatures. We have uncountable numbers of Beings now who have ceased, on some level and to some degree, to trust God. How will this trust be restored?
Heru: I don't know that I have the answers to this. These are profound and deeply sorrowful questions. And I am sort of in the middle, where I have participated in the creation of the universes. I have watched them fall, and have been to some degree powerless to prevent or correct that. I don't even know how to begin to address the sorrow and the loss.
Elora: I know that when I feel anger at someone, that anger immediately evaporates when I can stand in that person's shoes. Perhaps if we, the creatures in this Creation, could truly grasp what the Creator went through when the invasion occurred, then we could forgive this great lapse of time and the unspeakable horrors that have happened.
Heru: Yes. I would suggest attempting a direct communication, having Karen channel the Creator. And express what you have expressed to me, directly.
Elora: Can you add anything else?
Heru: I would tell you that all of the Ascended Masters have felt similar emotions to what you have expressed. If you would look at the life of Jeshua [Jesus], he would be a pretty good manifestation of the attempt of all of us to effect change, and how that was ruined and distorted. [Elora: Are you speaking of his life, or what happened to his teachings?] Both his teachings and what happened to him, in the Crucifixion. As this world fell further into darkness, any attempt at a public ministry by an Ascended Master would meet with the same fate.
Part 2: The Prime Creator responds
Karen and I took Heru's advice, and we set out in an attempt to access some aspect of the consciousness of that being whom we call Creator. I must confess here that I have always felt extremely skeptical of those who profess to channel "God". In fact, in a lifetime of travels on the inner planes, I had never encountered any being or consciousness whom I could call God. However, when Karen and I called in the Prime Creator of this Creation at Heru's suggestion, there was indeed a response from a Consciousness which was both awesomely powerful and tenderly loving. I still do not know if our Prime Creator is the ultimate God beyond which there is no other. I do feel that we communicated with an aspect of the Consciousness of the Creator, however. The energy was so intense that the words coming through were sometimes, of necessity, extremely simple. I wish that these words could convey the profound power and love which filled the room during those moments.
Elora: Greetings to you, Creator. We have called on you in hopes that we can understand you better, and to heal our relationships with you. We understand that you are the One who created this Creation that we live in. Is this correct?
Prime Creator: Yes. [Elora: Are you a singular Being, or are you an expression of group mind, an expression of a group or Council which created this Creation?] I am One. [Elora: Do you have gender?] No.
Elora: Are there Creations created by Gods other than yourself?
Prime Creator: It appears to me that there are but I do not interface with them.
Elora: Would you please describe to us something of the vision that you held when you created this particular Creation?
Prime Creator: I have created many Creations, and this was to be my most beautiful Creation yet to date. In large part it is successful. I am aware of your pain and concern in this part of the Fallen Universes. I would like to discuss that today.
Elora: Thank you, we would as well. How did you feel or perceive the initial attack of darkness?
Prime Creator: It was actually fairly small initially, like stepping on a nail; or a pinprick or a bee sting, something of that nature. The initial pain was not that severe. However there was a venom that was inserted through that opening, which began to spread fairly subtly and rapidly - subtly enough that I did not perceive its spread immediately. This foreign invader began to lay eggs and set up colonies. And that did not appear extremely harmful at first. It seemed benign and it seemed that these Universes would not be harmed by it, for I felt there was room for all.
Elora: At that point, were you getting calls for help?
Prime Creator: No, for these beings were not manifesting their true intent for quite a long period of time. They were well established before they revealed their criminal intent. Regarding when that intent was revealed, let us see if we can set some timelines. Your time is difficult for me to relate to, so perhaps you can help by giving a framework.
Elora: Heru states that the initial invasion occurred about 1.3 billion years ago. To continue, at some point you realized there was a threat, and these invaders were not innocent?
Prime Creator: Yes. It seems that this occurred hundreds of millions of years ago, but not billions. And so there would have been that long amount of time for the corruption to spread and to spread, amongst the Creator Gods, the Angelic Hierarchies, the Elohim, and the other hierarchies, almost all of which have been contaminated. During that time the Dark Beings were keeping within themselves, and very closely guarded, the secret of their criminal intent. The fullness of this criminal intent did not become clear until the Dark Universes began being born out of the darkness. Again, that time was perhaps several hundred million years ago, but not as much as a billion.
Elora: It appears that the Light Workers were first sent into the contaminated Universes about 500 million years ago. So perhaps it was shortly before that.
Prime Creator: Yes, that is most likely correct. At that time it was not known whether these Light Forces would prevail or how effective they could be, for we had and I had never encountered anything like this. There was hope that this would be enough. And all along the way, those of my Creation who had succumbed attempted to hide their contamination. Therefore throughout this whole process was obfuscation and delay. These delays made it take longer than it should have for it to become apparent that the efforts of the Light Forces were not enough.
Elora: Were the dark and contaminated Universes sealed off at this points so they could not infect others?
Prime Creator: I had no mechanism with which to do so. This invading force was able to penetrate anything and everything in this Creation. There was really no material at that time in this Creation built in such a way that could deflect or seal or contain this contamination. It was at that point that I saw the need to create something outside of this Creation, and began to create a new Creation. And that is where the Warriors of Light have come from.
Elora: Why did this take so long?
Prime Creator: The declaration of the Dark and the erection of the Frequency Fence happened about 500 million years ago in your time. In the age of this particular Creation this is a relatively short time period, though it would seem incredibly vast to you. That being said, the greatest difficulty in bringing forth the Light Warriors was in creating an entirely new substance with which to create. Creating the forms, the personalities, the talents - all of that - basically followed the patterns that had already been established. But to create something wholly new, a new substance, takes a lot of time.
Elora: Why did you not send help to the Light Beings who went into the Dark Universes, as promised?
Prime Creator: Help was sent, and it was defeated. [This statement seemed to be followed by a deafening silence, as the tragedy of it sank in.] In fact, instead of my sealing off the invaders, the invaders sealed me off from this part of the Creation. And many have been lost.
Elora: Is all the infection more or less located within a certain area of the Creation?
Prime Creator: Yes. [Elora: Is it still spreading?] At this point, no, but only because of the Light Warriors.
Elora: I know how we felt, we who were in the Dark and Fallen Universes. We felt abandoned and betrayed by you. We didn't understand that you had sent help. How did you feel at that time?
Prime Creator: The whole of the Creation wept. There are no words to describe the grief at the loss of part of my beloved, for this whole Creation functions as one entity. And it was as if she were dying and amputated - that this part of her was amputated, and that the whole of her was going to die. For the whole Creation has been threatened by this invasion.
Elora: It has been a terrible thing. But then the new Creation was created, and you made the Light Warriors.
Prime Creator: Yes. [Elora: How do you see things now?] (Strongly) I have created something that no darkness can resist. I have cordoned the darkness off from the rest of this Creation, and have begun the Great Battle. I myself know nothing of war; it is not a part of what I am. But amongst these Warriors of Light are great Captains who are in the process of uncloaking themselves as we speak. And in a twinkling of an eye, things in this Creation will look much different. Then the healing will begin. Those Universes that were created by the Fallen will be destroyed, for they are not reclaimable; they were not built upon my founding principles of Light. [Elora: And the Invaders will be destroyed?] Yes.
Elora: Will the Light Warriors destroy all the darkness in this Creation?
Prime Creator: These Light Warriors will not stop at the perimeters of my Creation. They will reach out into the heart of what sent the Darkness here, and will destroy it. [Elora: Once this Creation is cleared, will you protect it from further attacks?] Yes, I will ring all of Creation with the Warriors of Light.
Elora: Have other Creations been threatened?
Prime Creator: Yes, indeed. There was a second attack, on another of my Creations. However it was much smaller and much later, and I was able to fend it off. [Elora: And how about those made by others?] I cannot say. [Elora: Those are too far distant for you?] Yes.
Elora: Do you know where the Dark Beings came from?
Prime Creator: Yes, but it is somewhat of an indescribable place. There are no words. It is outside of this Creation.
Elora: How can the sense of abandonment and betrayal, that so many of us feel, be healed?
Prime Creator: I would say that the proof is in the pudding. When I have eliminated the darkness, then the healing will begin. Then faith can be restored, and not until that time.
Elora: I realize my own anger at you was unfounded, and ask you to forgive me for that.
Prime Creator: My darling one, it is I who needs to ask your forgiveness, for it is I who am responsible for what occurred. There are no words to express the depth of my sorrow about this. [Elora: It is hard for us Humans to realize and understand that even a Being so powerful as yourself is not completely omniscient and omnipotent, to realize that even for you this is a learning process.] Yes.
Elora: The hardest thing for me is the Beings who were lost. Will there ever be a way to reclaim them?
Prime Creator: Their blueprints are intact, their records are intact. [Elora: But their essence? Is it gone forever?] Once the darkness has been removed, we will see. It is not known yet.
The communication ended at this point, because I was crying, as was Karen, and it seemed that Creator was weeping as well. The energy was also too strong for her to handle, so we released the connection.
[Elora:] To explain the last part of the communication: certain Beings within the Fallen Universes have been attacked in such a destructive way that the only recourse was for them to be "melted down" and returned to Source. An analogy would be a golden cup which is thrown into a vat of molten gold. The pure metal remains, but all individuation is lost. This has been the ultimate tragedy resulting from the Invasion of Darkness, for many great and beautiful Beings have been lost. It is hoped, however, that ultimately even they can be reclaimed.
A week later, we spoke to the Creator again. The communication flowed more easily this time.
Part 3 -The Dance of Creation
Elora: Creator, thank you for coming to speak with us again today. We would like to know, first, can you affect change in this world, in people's lives here?
Prime Creator: Yes. It is an interesting paradox. I know you have been receiving information about the fact that when they become enlightened, people have a sort of bubble around themselves where all they see is love and light. To some degree, faith and belief playa big part in that. [Elora: When people have faith you can work more easily?] Yes.
Elora: I am puzzled by something that Heru told me. He said that since we are a Free Will Universe, the release of the Omniversal Energy and the Light Warriors had to be petitioned for, and it was voted down many times, therefore delaying the release greatly. Is it true that you were waiting on this petition to come to you - and if so why, since surely you are aware that Free Will in the Fallen Universes is a mockery?
Prime Creator: That is perhaps not quite the way I would describe it. I don't want to say that Heru was incorrect, but from my perspective it was somewhat different. It is one of those synchronies that is the magic of this Creation. For the cry for intervention did not develop until the Light Warriors were ready to be released. Therefore as fragmented - as fallen, dense, separate, and dark as this sector of the Creation is - it still resonates with my blood, with my life, and with my light. And this is proof of it. And that, my dear, should make you very happy. For what that says is that you still belong to me, you are still my beloved, and I still dance with you.
Elora: There was not a unified cry for intervention before then?
Prime Creator: It was as if the Beings in this sector could feel the help that was coming, they could smell it being ready. So as the readiness came, the cry also came. That is why I say it is a synchronous happening.
Elora: Even on Earth, we have prophecies which have looked forward to this time. And I've wondered, how did we know?
Prime Creator: Exactly. You knew. And you still have that connection with me, in spite of everything that has been done to each of you.
Elora: I have seen that a mighty pulse of energy is going to come out of the Godverse some time in the future. Could you explain exactly what this is?
Prime Creator: It is the Breath of God. My breath has great restorative powers, as you can imagine - for healing, for restoration, and for cleansing. [Elora: Will you breathe once in that way, or many times until healing is complete?] Three times. [Elora: Somehow I want to cry when I hear that.] Because you know this, and because you know that these three breaths will bring you complete wholeness.
Elora: You said that the Fallen part of Creation was cut off from you. How did this occur? Have there been Frequency Fences placed all around the Fallen part of Creation so that we were disconnected from you and from the rest of Creation?
Prime Creator: Yes. This occurred in the reverse order from what you may imagine. The invasion came. It appeared benign, and spread through a number of universes. Once the invaders had an area sufficient to give them a platform upon which to launch the takeover of this entire Creation, they then built the Frequency Fences, cut everything off, and caused the Universes to fall. All of the Fallen Universes are grouped together inside this Frequency Fence.
Elora: So the Fallen part of Creation became like a cancerous tumor, walled off from the rest of the body.
Prime Creator: Yes, but once it reached a certain mass or density or intensity, it would have exploded into the rest of Creation, just as a cancer would metastasize.
Elora: I remember from being in Virqie, which is of course a Light Universe, that there was a continual experience of being connected to God. It was more than being connected, it was that all life was One and all life flowed together. This is part of what was cut off, this Oneness with the Whole?
Yes.
Elora: It seems that there is a characteristic of this Creation, that the highest and most powerful Beings, paradoxically, cannot seem to affect the manifest part of Creation itself. Is that how this Creation is, or is it solely due to the separation and sealing off that has been done by the Dark Forces?
Prime Creator: The latter. In an Unfallen Universe there is no separation.
Elora: Some say that you, the Creator, are too far above or too distant to take an active part in Creation, and that the role of active participation in Creation must be undertaken by other Beings and Forces. Can you speak to this?
Prime Creator: In the Unfallen part of my Creation I am very present within every action, every cycle, every part of what happens. I am the stuff from which the Creator Gods form the Universes, and so there is a process of co-creation with both of us together. It is a beautiful dance. How it has been distorted in the Fallen Universes, I do not really need to explain. But that dance is a very interesting, multi-layered, fluid give and take. There is the dance between me and the Creator Gods to create form, and then there is the dance between me and the form, almost as lovers. The beauty, the intricacy, the intensity of all of this is a magical song. And yes, it has been very distorted.
Karen went to a lecture last night where the speaker was talking about the incredible fire of all-consuming longing for the Beloved. He described that fire as torturous, and how it entails going through the dark night of the soul. And that is part of the distortion. It is not created to be painful in that way. Yes, there is ecstasy within that pain, but pain is not native to the process. Yet that fire does live in every soul. And that is where, as a soul, you will find me.
Elora: You state that you are the "stuff" out of which Creation is made. This reminds me of Krishna's statement in the Bhagavad Gita: "Permeating the Creation with a fragment of Myself, I remain." In other words, God permeates the entire Creation, yet is also beyond it in an unmanifest state.
Yes.
Elora: Are you the Guardian and Protector of this Creation?
Prime Creator: Prior to the invasion of the Dark, I am ashamed to say that I did not see the need for protection or guardianship. It was just a lovely dance. I have created the Creation of the Light Warriors to ensure that this Creation will be restored to that dance, and will remain that dance, For as you have seen I could have armed this Universe and this Creation; but I would no longer want to dance that dance with this Creation. And in the end I would have had to destroy it.
Elora: Have you not done so now? Have you not armed this Creation?
Prime Creator: Yes, but with something outside of the Creation - and that is the difference. Had I armed it with something from within this Creation it would have destroyed it. [Elora: Because war is so antithetical to the nature of this Creation?] Yes. I would have had to arm everything from the greatest Universal structures to the tiniest subatomic particles, and so the entire Creation would have been weaponized. And I have no desire to dance the intimate dance with a warrior.
Elora: Many Humans see God the Creator as a parent, as a Father or Mother figure. I have personally always been more drawn to the concept of God as the Beloved. Which is more correct, from your perspective, or are both of them correct?
Prime Creator: Being everything and all that is, yes, both are correct.
Elora: It is very hard for us to understand what motivates Dark Beings. Why do they wish to harm, to destroy, to enslave, to take over other Beings?
Prime Creator: The reason that it is so hard for you to understand is because it is one hundred percent antithetical to your nature, as it is to mine as well. I do not understand what motivates the Dark. I sent and sacrificed many of my parts in an effort to educate, salvage, heal, transform, and reform these Dark Beings; to make them compatible with this Creation. All I can say is that now they must be removed forever.